Over the past days I've been thinking and thinking. Due to the lack of entertainment and the over saturation of entertainment as conversation, I've been able to talk to people. Not a strange thing communication, even without talking a living being can communicate. Thinking about this new found communication, I've deduced that all the communication I have engaged in is null and void. Saying this I have never had a real conversation where in a person not attached to a fuller person and that he/she is not rolled to do so. Seeing that a sum total of sixteen years from first breath to the syntax I type out now is irrelevant and is officially useless, I'm left back at the point wherein I must learn how to speak. Not simple vocals from my vocal chords, but being able to relate and contribute to a heartfelt discussion. So a strategy is formed, but that case is only viewable through verbal discord and is classified to my mind only.

I have not feeling for the emotions expressed over the years. Laughter, horror, disgust, and guilt to name a few, are things I need to discard. But me being a conduit of things and intellectually (so may be your view) unable to relate, 'am an avatar of these feelings as everyone is.

A chicken learns how to be a chicken by learning from the hens and roosters, an eagle learns how to be an eagle by learning from mother and father. But everyone is capable to be an eagle, just that everybody around us decided to be a chicken or may not even know it. So I've learned from a recent youth conference. So tomorrow I'll decide to be a chicken or an eagle.